In the book, Anything, Jennie Allen writes about the day she asked one of her favorite seminary professors a deep, age-old question:" How does someone know God?" His answer is telling.
"He began by listing all the ways we grow or know God: prayer, studying Scripture, church, worship, experiences, suffering, confession, community and on and one. Then he said, "But obviously each of these is unpredictable...many people who study the Bible never find God. Many people who go to church never really know him. The only exercise that works 100 percent of the time to draw one close to the real God is risk.""
He went on, "To risk is to willingly place your life in the hand of an unseen God and an unknown future, then watch him come through. He starts to get real when you live like that."
After my experience in China, and now the experience of preparing for this retreat, I feel like I know God better than I ever have. Is it because I am taking some risks and he is showing himself faithful?
I don't know. But I do know that this is the way I want to live my life.