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project ordinary day #31

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2014-06-01_0001Brian's mom is doing well. For a while she was sick and determined that it was time for her to die. But after a few weeks of no eating or drinking, she perked up and is now out of her bed, dressed and eating in the dining hall with the other residents. We are thankful that she has once again pushed through and is living life again. Each time we visit, though, she asks us why she can't just die. Having lost her husband last November, she feels ready to go. She had a good life so now she'd like it to be over. Brian, after hearing her lament one more time, got up and found her Bible. This is what he read:

Psalm 139:1-6

O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.

You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.

You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.

You hem me in - behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.

verse 16

All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be...

These words seemed to be a comfort to Martha as she remembered that God knows her, loves her and has a day planned that she will leave this earth. It's just not today.