Have you ever read something in the Bible and wondered at its meaning? This very thing happened when Jesus was in the midst of his ministry, declaring himself to be the Son of God. In John 6 Jesus had just told the crowd that he was the bread of life and the ones who would come to him would never go hungry and those who believed in him would never be thirsty. Whoever would eat this bread would live forever.
Many of the people in that crowd threw up their hands and basically said, "This is too weird. I'm not going to follow this!" And they walked away. Jesus turned to his disciples and asked them if they too planned to go elsewhere, knowing very well that one of his chosen twelve would indeed do just that. But passionate Peter stepped up and declared, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life! We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."
I love this story because I too have moments when this Christian life seems just too hard. Our God is way too mysterious and he asks too much. Many years ago our church and circle of friends prayed and prayed for healing for the very ill daughter of our closest friends. After she died I remember thinking that this was too hard! If we can't pray and be answered well, then I don't know if I can follow this kind of God. My immature faith had never asked for healing like this…I didn’t know what to do.
But as I agonized over this dilemma, the words came to me, clear and pure: Lord, to whom shall I go? You have the words of eternal life. You are the Holy One of God.
It hit me like stepping into a waterfall. I had NO WHERE ELSE TO GO! Should I step into not believing in God? I absolutely could not go "nowhere" with nothing to put my faith in. A new understanding of his sovereignty seemed to be in the works. I prayed for faith and a yielding to him and his will.
My journey toward the cross here in 2014 moves forward with faith as the bottom line. I choose to believe, knowing that this belief is a gift from the Father. I'm thankful I didn't throw that gift back into his face. He is the Holy one and I bow down in love and respect waiting with and for him.
Just recently my husband and I sat across the table from each other and asked a similar question. Do we believe that no matter what happens, we will trust that God is sovereign and in him is where we rest our faith? Or are we to waver in the midst of a potentially very difficult outcome. We chose faith in a God who knows all and gives us bigger assurances than the ones we can predict or demand from him.
I think he knows how to manage the world better than we do even when we don’t understand or necessarily agree.